Last Post of 2010

It's been almost 1 month since I was posted to MP Command. I gotta admit it's the best place one would ever wana go. Thank god for that. Other than physical trainings, every other trainings are manageable but the tougher ones will be starting next week! Next sunday is my 21st birthday! LOL! Hmm I'll be having my guard duty on the 8jan, Sat and there's service on sun and I have to book in the night, I give up the plan on having a party. Just a simple lunch or dinner with my parents will do, I guess? Haha.

SMU application is open now till April 2011. The fear of rejection delayed my application. Gotta think twice about what I really want to do. Sigh... It's tough. Am I signing up for uni for a wrong purpose? Are all NS men really that desperate? LOL! Ppl might laugh at me when they see my post but who cares, afterall my blog is the only place where I get to cast all my thoughts out. It feels great lol.

If there's something that I ever want to do, that would be to prove that I'm intelligent haha. Looking at how smart my peers are in MP Command, in terms of their academic results, I cant help feeling ashamed of myself. Why didnt I work harder for my O's... Tell me... Am I really dumd lol.... Shit!!! Emo-ing again... There's only one way to prove it, try to stay on par with the others when I get into a uni.

A brand new year is coming and wad's ur new year resolution? Mine? Secure a place in uni, lepak when I get my rank, find my mrs right (hahaha! Or is she waiting in the uni? LOL) and gym more often!!!

Thank God for everything he had given me throughout the year 2010. Things just gonna get better next year, it gotta be...

The End of My Training in SCS - Block Leave

It's really nice of him to drive me home at the very last day. Didnt expect him to live just diagonally across my flat. Anyway it's Tuesday today, my very last day of leave. Cant really recall wad I did daily but glad that I managed to buy GT 5 and NBA 2k11!!! Popular games indeed haha!

*Dono where did he get his source from but heard I was one of the selected ones to cross over but in the end, I wasnt selected and the cruel thing is, I was asked to be a pacer to make sure he get his gold for ippt... took my place and yet, I had to help to push him further for the place lol... I dont feel disappointed though lol! In fact I'm glad he managed to cross over, maybe that's wad friends're for hahaha! I'm sure wadeva I'm gg through now is being planned by u, lord :)*

Went gym + basketball in NP on saturday with simon and heng. It's been awhile, Np changed alot. Anyway got posted to 8th S.I.R and I heard it's most probably security trooper for key installation, RP or MP. Whether is it good or bad, I cant tell now, the one thing I never want to think about now. Anyway praise the lord for that, managed to escape from aslc haha.

Had yum cha again today but with my parents and met bee siew in the restaurant haha! Went straight to the new shopping mall in serangoon and met wayne lol! Wad a small world it is.

Tried.... not in school (NP & CHR), neither is it in church and definitely not in CAMP!!! lol! She's waiting in one of the uni lol!!! Come on come on!!! Application starting in a few months time, gotta start planning!!!

Off In Lieu

Booked out at 6.40am on thurs morning! Agreed to meet up with marcus earlier at orchard before our tim sum buffet. I wonder why the friends around me are always one of a kind, though not everyone. It's just so hard to trust someone. Waited there innocently and he didnt turn up, never even bother informing me. I despise ppl like that but what to do? God teaches us to forgive and forget lol. Wanna know the reason he gave when I approached him? "Oh I forget about it" What a...

For the very first time, couldnt find anyone out for a movie so went alone instead lol! It's not as nice as I thought it would be but guess the fact that I really like harry potter had already covered up the negative part. Went straight to meet chai yun for dinner right after the movie. KFC zinger student meal + cheese fries!!!! My favourite!!!haha!

Aimed to buy at least one ps3 game during this 4 days but sadly, failed!!! Went over to SITEX with nicholas and jun wei and couldnt find anything that attracts my eyes haha. Apparrently the games are really expensive. Hope to get some ps3 games soon!!!

What A Bad Week

It's field camp week. The start of a tough and challenging week for me. It's just 3 days 2 nights (Supposed to be 2 days 1 night, thanks to the "boy" from 5th coy), but it's more than enough to make u drop flat on the ground lol. Majority got affected by heat rashes including me. U wont want to experience it.

Was raelly shagged when I sat down on the bench in the training shed, "checking clear" of my SAR21 and suddenly one round went off from my gun lol... I guess I'm famous now... SOL 7days??? Sigh...

Had soc test yesterday, thank God for pulling me through, cleared every obstacles but as for timing, I hope I made it in time. Am I getting weaker? Till now I cant pull myself up and try to take leadership roles lol.

Received my two new beanies alrdy!!! Nice...

Wanna go out but cant find anyone lol! Going out to make a new pair of specs now :)

Next week will be even tougher but it'll be fine after the week :) Pray and work.

With pride I lead, SCS lol!

The Thought of Crossing Over to OCS

Am I being too unrealistic? Cant help putting away the thought of crossing over to ocs. I cant control my feelings and thoughts at times. All I can remember is that I cant stay motivated for more than 1 day. Feeling comes and goes.

Garang? Initiative? I'm nt mentally strong enough yet. There's a lot of things I wana achieve during this 1 yr and 10 mths. Got to stay positive and attain as many achievements as possible. Trainings might not be as tough as it is in BMT but just what is the factor making me so unmotivated to continue my daily life in NS? Gotta depend on musics to motivate myself everyday.

Brought one of my dumbbell into the camp. Let's hope I'll start training hard again.

Bought ps3 2 days ago. Not to mention FF13 lol! Impressive graphics :)

Been seeking inspiration from noobthenick's blog. Yea in order to make the full out of this NS life, cant be training physically forever, gotta start reading as well. Few more months before application for uni starts, this time round, I'll definitely make it. By then, I gotta make sure my english has been "polished". Looking through the past photos he had uploaded made me realized just how much we had grown. Time flies.

2 sunday burnt just for live firing. Cant go to church. I need to recharge lol. The one thing I never wana miss - attending church services.

Cant help looking at the lump sum of money I'll earn if I sign on. I supposed that is the binding factor plus I get to work in office and somewhere near my home. Signed the withdrawal form as my sunday will be burnt if I sign on. It's the right choice. I'm sure of it :)

Went for med checkup and same thing happened again. No results, come back again for X ray. it's the sec or third time I've been feeling a slight pain all of a sudden. What's happening???

Free time is what I really need now.

The Start of My 4th Week in Specialists Cadet School

Been having buffet for like every weekends cos there's just so many birthday party lol!!! Just when I realized it, I'm turning 21 soon too. Life in SCS so far... hmm not bad haha. I guess it's all about the commanders we have there. Thank God for everything. Indeed he has a great plan for me. Wonder if I'll be able to cross over to ocs and sign up for Airforce Officer positions. Is it a wise choice for me if i managed to cross over?



Sadly I didnt bring my camera for Justin's birthday and yea, no pictures uploaded in fb yet lol!!! Inefficient at all!!! Haha jkjk.

Went out with simon, hoping to purchase 1 or 2 "Praise" T shirts but to no avail lol. Saw the cameras sales and wanted to purchase one but wonder why i hesitated and went off lol! Anyway glad that I managed to buy 3 berms ytd lol. Grey, black and white each haha!

Oh yea my latest IPPT results, here goes:

2.4km Run - 9.37min (5 Points)
Shutter Run - 9.7s (5 Points)
Sit-ups - 42 (5 Points)
Pull-ups - 12 (5 Points)
SBJ - 239 (4 Points)

Total Score: Gold (24/25) 1 more point to a perfect gold hahaha

Thank God for everything. Even though I had always wanted to get a gold but never did I expect myself to be able to achieve it. Indeed nth is impossible :)

Final Countdown to SCS

Went church today as usual. Kinda disappointed as it ended kinda late and I was rushing to meet evangeline. Didnt get to catch up with the others! One thing for sure, Gordon never fails to share his past NS experiences with me lol. Fit indeed.

It's been just 2 days after the posting results are out and I have already know of around 10 ppl going to OCS. LOL! It was really a surprise when some of them told me they got posted to scs haha leader in disguise. It's an honor man! Army's wing! Officer!

Even though knowing that SCS is more suitable for me especially when I get stressed up easily, but cant help feeling disappointed for not getting into ocs lol. MAN!!! Fame is the main factor causing my disappointment now, I suppose?

Fight for OCS when I get into SCS? Will the fire keeps on burning?

Lord pls help me sort out my mind!!! I'm trying not to think so much but LOL!!! I have always wanted to be one of the best.

It's driving me mad LOL!!!! OCS SCS OCS SCS!!!

Aftermath

Posted to SCS - Specialists Cadet School. One thing for sure, I wouldnt be as stressed as I forsee myself to be if I got posted to OCS. For some reason, I'm worried of the uncertainties and maybe a new environment again. What awaits next might be tougher. Seems like majorities got posted to command school, I'm sure I'll see lots of familiar faces :)

Went back to BP to visit my grandma ytd. Just came back today and finished packing my bag! Wad a relief :) Gained 4kg during this week LOL!!! How do I maintain my diet and weight if this happens during every book out hahaha!

Will I still be as carefree as I am now when tmr comes. My last day before a new challenge again.

Pre-Posting Day

Looking back at the GP photos, it sure brings back memories and just when I thought it's the end, it was in fact the start of the real NS life. What to do? Ask me if I enjoy serving the NS? Stop kidding me, you know it. Hmm postings will be out tmr. OCS? SCS? Man? Try my best to look on the bright side, at least I'll be in Singapore but away from the city -.-

Thanks wong for accompanying me to Emart to buy my No. 4 :) Finally got myself a more suitable size haha.

As usual, my scouting partner, nicholas brought me over to china town for Tim Sum buffet. It was really nice of wei qian to drive us there and we had great time fellowshipping with one another. It was really really delicious and nice!!!! Gotta bring my parents over and maybe a girl??? LOL! Who's the lucky one hahaha

Man!!!! It's friday already.... Pls tell me i don have to report back on monday... Thinking of NS spoils my mood.

Block Leave

It's party time! Finally get to rest for 1 week? 10 days? Well gotta wait till friday before I know the results. By now, those successful soldiers who got selected for OCS would have already received their letter :( Though I know I'll definitely hate the trainings in ocs but wonder why, just felt that sense of failure knowing that I didnt make it for ocs (most probably). It's after getting into BMT that I realized being a sergeant is really a no big deal kind of thing.

Went to hospital ytd wif my parents but didnt have a conclusion to what's happening. What's the cause of the swell? Hormones inbalanced? LOL! Does tht explains why everyone is telling me that I'm too gentle? Then how do u explain those bushes of hair over my legs LOL!!! High level of both male and female hormones? LOL! Really hope it's nth serious :) Pray for me peeps. I need a confirmation!!! I nid to know the reason behind this thing and that it's nth serious!

Had a great day today especially with julian and chee yi around. Went to watch lengend of the fist and follow by k box. Hmm it feels werid today. Didnt really enjoy as much as i do as compared to our first k box outing lol! It feels great to be a student once again. Student meals for lunch at KFC haha! My favourite as usual, zinger meal with cheese fries.

Have a lot of things in mind that I wana do and buy. Is it a need or a want? Gotta pull myself away from temptations, from greed. Wanna buy one set of uniform and exercise tmr (Gym & basketball most probably) but have yet to come out with a plan!!! Von agreed to acc me, simon definitely don mind gyming with me but what bout basketball tmr? Just the two of us? hmmm...

Out of Tekong - POP Lo!

Route march or road march??? Anyway had a hard time trying to squeeze everything in my cupboard into my field bag. Left tekong at around 7.30pm in the night and starting march around 8pm. Mentally and physically tough haha! Started the march with an aching tigh and feet. Guess it was a pleasure to have my march on the mainland, at least there's nice sceneries.

Really glad that I can finally leave tekong. Made some great friends and acquired lots of skills. Dont have to leave Singapore again!!! I'm lucky enough to be in the pioneer batch to have our parade and march in Singapore. It was really nice haha!

The moment when we threw our joky caps up high, tears started to flow down from both jun kai and zhi ming's eyes. Don feel like leaving each other as well but one thing funny about this was, instead of making a girl shedding tears for me, I made 2 guys shedding tears over me (partially). LOL! Doesn't it sounds weird? Haha!

Our posting will be out next friday after 10pm. I believe God has a plan for me :) I'm so gonna enjoy my 12 days of block leave :) Basketball, shopping, movies, lan, k box and maybe playing my cello LOL!

The Last Book In

Sure bring back memories. Will we still stick together like we used to be after we pass out from BMT? The bond we have is really strong but how long will it last? It was really a pleasure getting to know everyone :) OCS? SCS? Unit? Should I sign on if I get into OCS?

Been eating alot after I booked out haha! Enjoying here but money dropping out from my mum's wallet LOL!

It's been a while since I last chatted with you. Headly have the chance to do so given that you always tht busy. It's really sad to see how stressed you are. Ran out of words to encourage and cheer u on. Book the book helps. Really hope to see you carrying the chain along wherever u go haha. Anyway all the best! Trust in the lord with all your heart :)

Gotta book in soon. Hope that there'll be good weather for the next few days. Rehearsal for the entire week. Just how tiring it can be? All I need is a cooling weather!

Last book in... FINALLY!!! Gotta prepare already!!! See ya :)

This Marks An End to My Life in BMTC!

Training to be soldier,
Fight for our land,
Once in a life,
Two years of our time.
Have you ever wonder?
Why must we serve?
Because we love our land,
And we want it to be free to be free ARGH!

Sick and tired of all the marching songs but wonder if i'll miss singing these songs in future. The past 2 months were the toughest moments I ever had. Everyone is saying just how fun life in BMT is and how much you will miss your time in BMT when you get posted to other units. Just how true it is. Maybe it is indeed true but the things I really cant bear to leave behind are my friends. Dont really like the trainings and programmes. Physically and mentally straining at times.

Just when I realized it, it has already come to my last week in BMTC. Will we continue to stick together after our posting? I can't answer that question haha. No programmes today!!! Boring.

Isn't there anyone who wana go out today?

Is This The Peak?

A tough week indeed. The day after my IPPT test, I had my 12KM road march and didnt even have the time to rest and went straight for arms drills and SOC test. Managed to clear all obstacles but I'm nt sure if my timing hits the requirement.

Didnt manage to obtain a gold for IPPT test :( Anyway is this really the peak of my physical fitness?

Lighter in the weekdays but heavier over the weekends haha! Been enjoying myself during the weekends :)

3 Hours of Rest

Agreed to meet up earlier to prepare Kenneth's birthday yesterday but everyone had something on at the last min except for Justin. Glad we managed to get something nice (I hope?) for him and I bought a beanie from Topman :)

Seems like everyone is obsessed with beanie. thanks to my influence hahahaa!

Buffet was great and had fun interacting with my section mates. Sadly Zibin had to leave half way as he had to replace Kenneth for guard duty. Such a great sacrifice haha! Sloppy movements as usual and we dragged the time all the way to 1145 and I missed my last train and bus, luckily Kenneth came to pick up back to aloha. Had bout 3 hrs of rest and left early in the morning to gym with nicholas. Dam shagged now but had a great dinner :) KFC!!!! Finger licking GOOD! Here comes my sore throat again.

Didnt manage to buy any clothes or jeans today but had a great time :)

I'm starting to doze off....

The Start of Physical Training Phase

SIT Test went off smoothly though I had to admit I didnt really have the chance and motivation to try and lead others into a solution LOL! Say Good Bye to OCS lol! 6 weeks had passed, 3 more to go. Had fun hanging around with my section mates haha! A group of interesting peers and not to mention my buddy, a hyper ventilator LOL!

A lot happened during this week or should I say every week. Trainings are getting tougher in terms of physical matters. Final IPPT Test will be held on next wed. Gold? Possible? My legs are aching!!!

Anyway just booked out ytd and had a stomach-filing lunch ant ananas cafe lol! Chicken rice and nasi lemak at just $3.80!!!! How cheap can it can haha! Cough got better right after I got home. Is the water in tekong the main cause of this?

Haven been using my HP for quite some time, no smses except from my mum haha! Siannnnnn

Time Flies

A few minutes more b4 I leave for NS. I would have leave my house by now if it's not for my buddy. It was really sweet of him. Offering a ride all the way to Pasir Ris, all I need is to go BP and wait for him. Really touched. Save my time and money :)

Just when I realised it, it's already the start of week 6. 3 more weeks to go. If you think 9 weeks is short, you're wrong. Imagine urself having programmes every single hour and that u hardly have the time to rest, would you still think that 9 weeks is short?

SIT Test tml!!! Cant help thinking about this. I'm not familiar with the combat stuffs yet, afterall it's just a few hours of "lecture"!!! MAN!!! God help me!!! This is a chance for everyone to show their leaderships as well as capabilities!!!

Right after SIT test, I'll be left with just IPPT and SOC. SOC was a great disappointment of course, I'm still weak!

It's sad to know that I gotta skip church again tmr. Pls pray for me, bro & sis in christ. Heard SIT test is more tiring!

MAN I gotta go alrdy! Time's running out!

Back From Field Camp

A relief indeed :) Came back from field camp last saturday. Though I supposed our field camp wasnt as tough as the 5th coy but it was definitely tough enough for me. Ever thought of not being able to bathe daily and eat normally like you used to do so daily? One major activity down and the next one will be our Situational Test on this coming sunday.

First IPPT test results:

Pull-ups - 12 (10 normal 2 underhand), 5 points
Shutter Run - 9.6 (5 points)
Sit-ups - 42 (5 points)
SBJ - 225 (3 points)
2.4km - 11.21 (3 points)

Total: 21 points, Silver

Second IPPT test results:

Pull-ups - 11 (Normal), 4 points
Shutter run - 10.38 (4 points)
Sit-ups - 40 (5 points)
SBJ - 225 (3 points)
2.4km - 10.21 (4 points)

Total: 20 points, Silver

Except for 2.4km run, I was quite disappointed with my results! No improvements at all, is field camp the main cause? Anyway praise the lord for such results :) Never expected myself to be able to hit a silver for IPPT.

Failed my SOC the next day after my IPPT. I guess my weekends might be burnt starting from next week!!! Sigh!!!!

Anyway another miracle was being able to attain MARKSMAN on my first attempt. Haha!

Gotta book in tmr, pray for me peeps! It's my situational test, another major part of my BMT and my cough is getting worse again.

My First Book Out

Finally back from tekong. The place wasn't as bad as i thought it would be BUT the trainings can be tough at times. Trying to adapt to this new environment. What I need is time!!! Everything we do must be fast enough which seems quite impossible at times. A lot of people fall sick during this 2 weeks. A lot of them reported sick too. I thought I was strong enough to withstand the germs and viruses but never did I expect myself to fall ill the moment I reached home. Fever, cough, sore throat and flu. Thank God for protecting me till I reached home. Cant afford to fall sick during my trainings.

Skipped church today as my parents wanted to bring me over to Alexandra hospital. Got my med already and hope I'll get well soon. It's been 3 weeks!!! I really miss church alot.

Let's hope everything turns out well from my first book in tonight.

PS: Bro & Sis!!! Pls pray for me! Health and strength!

My Last Post Before Enlistment

If today was your last day, what would you do? Had trouble pulling myself up from the bed. I knew that it was my last day at home. Stayed at home the whole day but got so restless after dinner. Just felt like sleeping again but I will be wasting the precious time I have at home. Didnt get to eat my Zinger Burger meal with cheese fries but glad my parent brought me out for ZI ZHA! It was delicious, thanks! :)

The only one I can think of, who lives near me and enlisting on the same date as me is none other than Nicholas. Met him up before he went for his farewell dinner. Yes we're more or less having the pre-enlistment stress.

Ask me if I thought of aiming for the OCS, well I never really think of it yet. All I ask of now is to adapt to the new environment asap. I need strength, motivation, faith and determination.

Thanks everyone for making my pre-enlistment days an memorable one.

I'll be away for quite some time, don't really know if I'll ever have the habit of blogging again. Take care peeps.

Good Bye :)